Meeting or simply talking with someone significant from your past can bring to mind so many of the things you thought long buried. Every emotion felt then rushes to the forefront and you can't help but wonder how you managed to delude yourself into thinking you're okay, when in reality, there's so many things left unanswered.
Having had that experience myself today, I am too confused to sort out how I felt about this development yet in my life right now. This year gets weirder by the day, and sometimes, I just wish time will stop so I can take my time figuring out how I feel. But of course, the world wouldn't stop just because you want it too. So there's much left to do except figure things out.
So how do you deal with it? How do you deal with the person you knew then being totally someone unexpected know? How do you deal with the feelings they evoke? How do you identify what it means?
Sadly, there is no guide in life on how to deal with this kind of confusion. But logically, you're suppose to consider these things as nothing more than temptations and distractions from your life, but emotionally, can I really say I am not affected? That this incident didn't make me rethink what I'm doing with my life. Temptations and unexpected encounters do have a tendency to show up when you're in the middle of thinking you're life is okay as it is and bringing things you're not satisfied with into focus.
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